So heres a post about the Player or the Partier. As i said before my best friend had a one night for him and really liked him. So we started going to his pub and i didn't really like him, he was obnoxious and cocky. Not really my cup of tea. So one night Big… Continue reading The Player…
Tag: my life
Catch up..
I havent posted in a while. Ive been writing in a diary all my thoughts to help my PIP claim. I decided to look through my diary entries for a week and type it up. ** So heres the catch up: Ive been diagnosed with PTSD, my doctor said i should be starting to heal… Continue reading Catch up..
Fight Song
Ive been on the phone to tax credits. I may or may not owe £700 in over payments, they said they will know next april. I broke down. Mums not helping, "beck its fine we'll sort it out" "dont worry about it". Those are the worst things you can say to an anxiety sufferer. I… Continue reading Fight Song
The Darkest Hour…..
Its been a while i know. Ive been struggling and been putting off writing because i have so many demons chasing me i didnt wqnt to relive it. But im already living it so i may as well write it. Ive been having panic attacks. When i lie in bed, i relive these memories, its… Continue reading The Darkest Hour…..
Devils Child….
I have been so busy. Lets start with the biggest issue. Big sis is ill. I mean really ill. She had a bad ear so on The Wednesday she went to the doctors and they told her she had a massive boil in her ear. Then on Thurs about 3am she woke up and her… Continue reading Devils Child….
Counselling…
Im in counselling now. I started on Wednesday. I like her, shes really nice so far, guaranteed ill hate her at one point in the treatment. She wanted abit of background information on me so that i wouldnt break down before i was ready because i will break down when dealing with the Lucifer stuff.… Continue reading Counselling…
Ovaries Suck
Why do i always pick the wrong uns? To be fair park bench guy is a sweetie and a good guy, its not his fault. We've been talking loads and he told me he broke up with his misses on the weekend so we've been flirting. Hes been giving me compliments making me laugh and… Continue reading Ovaries Suck
Blasts from the Past…
So im not sure if im shared this story before but the girls think it's legendary. I was passed out on a bench. Ok that sounds bad, side note, when im tired i crash, always have, when people say just drink more, it doesnt work, i still need to crash. So my sis and me… Continue reading Blasts from the Past…
Kicked in the Teeth…
Ive decided not to carry on fighting Lucifer. I cant fight any more. Im tired of it. I want to just move on. Its been really hectic. I had to have my wisdom tooth out on Tues, its ben agony so made an emergency appointment, sat in the car and the dentist says yeah you'll… Continue reading Kicked in the Teeth…
Back to Basics ❌… Back to Beck…
I feel like a broken record. Another bad day, another bad day, another bad day. I had my meeting with the police yesterday. There is nothing they can or will do. The DC or DI, whatever he is, said he agrees with the decision that was made if not the reasoning. I asked him could… Continue reading Back to Basics ❌… Back to Beck…
