My self worth My confidence My ability to say no My strength My voice My independence My freedom My life Thats what you took from me, what did you leave me with? Anxiety Doubt Fear Disgust and anger at myself Crippling insecurity I have my independence back but is it worth anything when im so… Continue reading Whats left, when you take everything away from me?
Ups and downs. Ups and downs. Ups and downs. I guess thats life. Its been two years since i met him. Half the time I feel overly paranoid. Like i have to check his not stalking me again. His pattern so far is every 6 months and its gone passed that. I worry if he… Continue reading What doesnt kill you makes you stronger?
I really really liked this one. He was sweet, he made me laugh and we had good banter. Been texting for a few weeks and he texts today saying that he's started seeing someone so cant keep texting me. Why does this always happen to me? Am i too broken? Is that all guys see… Continue reading Heart Break…
So its been a while. And whats on my mind? Guys. Or to be more specific 5 guys: The guy i slept with The guy who wants me The ex guy The guy i like And lastly the guy who i cant have. - So start with the guy i slept with. I met him… Continue reading Why dont you make up your mind?
I started my Trauma Stabilisation course today or how to stop being so broken. The question of the hour? How? One session in and i already woke up with a horrendous nightmare but it was after that was worse, i couldnt find mum, i needed to know mum was safe, i dont know why, i… Continue reading Turn Back Time…
So heres a post about the Player. As i said before my best friend had a one night for him and really liked him. So we started going to his pub and i didn't really like him, he was obnoxious and cocky. Not really my cup of tea. So one night Big Sis made a… Continue reading The Player…
I havent posted in a while. Ive been writing in a diary all my thoughts to help my PIP claim. I decided to look through my diary entries for a week and type it up. ** So heres the catch up: Ive been diagnosed with PTSD, my doctor said i should be starting to heal… Continue reading Catch up..
Its been a while i know. Ive been struggling and been putting off writing because i have so many demons chasing me i didnt wqnt to relive it. But im already living it so i may as well write it. Ive been having panic attacks. When i lie in bed, i relive these memories, its… Continue reading The Darkest Hour…..
I have been so busy. Lets start with the biggest issue. Big sis is ill. I mean really ill. She had a bad ear so on The Wednesday she went to the doctors and they told her she had a massive boil in her ear. Then on Thurs about 3am she woke up and her… Continue reading Devils Child….
Why do i always pick the wrong uns? To be fair park bench guy is a sweetie and a good guy, its not his fault. We've been talking loads and he told me he broke up with his misses on the weekend so we've been flirting. Hes been giving me compliments making me laugh and… Continue reading Ovaries Suck